Forensic

I failed it
Ok. That's it.

The guilt when 4 out of 5 of my group yg datang tgk result fail. Then ada budak chinese datang. They pass. Tahu xperasaan tu? Perasaan yg hmmmh kenapa asyik depa yg top of the cream. Kenapa? Kenapa bukan awak nis? Bila ni? Bila muslim nak jadi top of the cream? That's our place! Kita pernah di atas. And then looking back at my past, last time, few years back i won't be among the people yg let say ada half gagal, i won't be in the half yg gagal! Kenapa ni? Kenapa teruk sangat? Kenapa merudum ni? Kenapa?

Awak tak put ur best pun kan macam awak buat dulu-dulu?
Awak cepat sangat lalai leka tambah dengan hal dunia hal yg kecik!
Awak layan sangat malas awak yg xkan bawak ke mana mana tu.
Awak tak put 100% effort and focus apatah lagi pun. Last minit sokmo.
Awak, Anis Farhana, mana awak yg dulu.

Awak kat mana...
Come back.
Get yourself together!