Lessons

First.
Never compare among siblings. Never! It took me few hours to build the relationship with ara but it took few seconds of saying a sentence to broke us apart gittew. "Adik ara laaaagi comel dari ara" that made her went merajuk to beside the sofa and almost made her cry a river before atan came to the rescue 😓. Haish. N she never talked back to me. Terus rindu few minutes before where we laughed and jelir lidah to each other 😣

Second.
The pillow talk. Esp when mama (read: mama ilya) came in.

"Kalau dia serius dengan kita pastu xmain2, xajak merapu2, tu tanda dia suka betul2"

"Kalau dia ambik berat pasal kita, tu tanda dia betul2 suka"

"Terus terang. Lelaki n perempuan ni otak lain2. Esp smallest matter. Xsuka xpuas hati jangan simpan dlm hati sebab later u gonna burst out loud n tu yg boleh rosakkan hubungan"

Jumpa mak ayah ok, ciri2 kita nak tu ada, plan jadi, ok la tu. Mungkin hati kita yg xok sebab kita banyak emosi, banyak prasangka. Check ourself first before others. Hati. Iman. Istiqomah.

#that26dec

Soalan

"Sanggup x hidup susah?"

Dan sungguh soalan itu perlunya jawapan jujur bukan hipokrit tambah dari diri yg serba manja dan cukup dijaga.

"Doakanla supaya sanggup."

Aku pilih untuk jujur.

Memoir

31/8/2015 - mula

10/9/2015 - jujur

24/9/2015jujur - datang

BE

So like I said in the last post, nak try join BE study if pass screening, remember? Haa aim nak join yg dapat 2k+ tapi keadaan xmengizinkan lantas diletakkan dalam study seterusnya, Losartan  2x weekend dapat 500+. Alhamdulillah la jugak xdapat p yg 2k tu sbb dia act kena stay hospital 17 hari! can't imagine laa cemana kan. masa nak tu dok nampak duit jaa mehmehmeh. So today is act my last day of last weekend la untuk BE ni. Alhamdulillah one achievement unlock! Haha.

Untuk orang yg xpernah derma darah macam aku ni, and masa sekolah kalau kena cucuk aku lah yg paling fragile bukan sebab nangis2 masa kena cucuk tapi lepas tu sebab sakitnyaaa hoi! Xmenahannn. Tambah2 masa form 2 (kalau xsilap) lepas kena cucuk tu balik asrama kena langgar dgn tray (can u imagine thatttt???!!!) kat site lengan yg kena inject tu hoho. Cry a river! Haha.

X la teruk sangat pun all the canulation and draw blood process. Sakit sikit je, kejap je. First week, cucuk 2x sebab salah vein tapi xla sakit gila. Second week haha sakit lebih sikit sebab dah la dia xdapat cari vein pastu terasa dia cucuk dengan ganas and korek2 nak cari vein tu grrrr. Setiap kali nak canulate mesti dok motivate diri alaaa apela sangat sakit ni banding dengan sakit beranak kannn. Haha. And thats the best motivation ever, seriously! Hihi.

Alhamdulillah all went well. Bila lagi nak 'practise rasa sakit', kan? Anis is on her way to become stronger! InsyaAllah :)

Tampal

Tampal gigi is not a good thing kan? Umur 23 pun still ketaq gak bila kena p tampal gigi. Nervous sangat sampai first visit bila dr kata ada 2 gigi berlubang, kau ter-react ntah cemana sampai dr kata ni check je next appointment baru tampal. Kehkehkeh. Over je.

So after 1 week p la klinik kesihatan tupai, taiping tu. Dapat dr diyana, the one who checked me last week. So dia explain la kena cuci gigi dulu baru tampal. Baru aku tahu yg ngilu ngilu b4 ni bila tampal gigi bukan proses tampalan tu, process cuci tu rupanyaaaaa.

Then bila dia cuci, masyaAllah xsakitttttt xngiluuuuuu. Sebab dia 'sembur' sikit2. Kan selalu yg ngilu tu bila dr duk ngengggggg lama2 kat gigi. Dia buat memang xngilu sebab dia byk stop. Best sangat. Kalau aku tau camni rela hati tampal semua gigi hihi. Bila suruh rapatkan gigi n dia tanya ada rasa tggi n i said yes, dia akan ratakan pelan2. Seriously her service is better than klinik swasta. Serious! Because i went to klinik swasta last time. Arghhh ngilu sangat! N rasa gigi tinggi sobsob.

I love u dr diyana, klinik kesihatan taipingtupai, taiping, bilik 2, pukul 10.45-11.30 (lebih kurang). Dear dr, if one day u open a clinic, please tell me. Rasa nak dr je as my dentist. Hehe. And for my future kids.

Alhamdulillah settle satu scariest thing. Next, if pass the screening, i'm thinking of joining be study. Aah, scary sbb dia nak canulate n amek darah byk kali setiap hari. Lets try.

😩

"Desperate?"

"Hg rasa desperate ke kalau mnx dgn cara ikhlas?"

Plan

Pffft I'm taking such a long time to rest! Though it's Ramadhan, I should've started something lah kan. Ouh well I did start something act. Done unpacking!  Hehe. Done organizing all the books, notes and four-years-stuff. No new cabinet k! Just a new transparent container je. Sob sob. But i was the one who decided to just put all my books in that box lah kot kot nanti prp dapat jauh senang la nak pindah. Haha. Hmmm now I'm more towards penang lah. Hmmm at least I can make a frequent visit to tok's house. Hmmm I don't know. Wpon prof syed kata taiping ada je kosong and penang, kedah, s elangor, kl mcm padat la for prp. Hmmm. Xpela, ada 3 choice for prp posting. Perak? Penang? Another one? Hmmm.

Ah back to my pre-prp to-do-list! Hmmm haven't started yet! Just small little tiny thing.

If u fail to plan, u r planning to fail!

Ark ok tomorrow must come out with a nicely scheduled plan! InsyaAllah!