Lessons

First.
Never compare among siblings. Never! It took me few hours to build the relationship with ara but it took few seconds of saying a sentence to broke us apart gittew. "Adik ara laaaagi comel dari ara" that made her went merajuk to beside the sofa and almost made her cry a river before atan came to the rescue 😓. Haish. N she never talked back to me. Terus rindu few minutes before where we laughed and jelir lidah to each other 😣

Second.
The pillow talk. Esp when mama (read: mama ilya) came in.

"Kalau dia serius dengan kita pastu xmain2, xajak merapu2, tu tanda dia suka betul2"

"Kalau dia ambik berat pasal kita, tu tanda dia betul2 suka"

"Terus terang. Lelaki n perempuan ni otak lain2. Esp smallest matter. Xsuka xpuas hati jangan simpan dlm hati sebab later u gonna burst out loud n tu yg boleh rosakkan hubungan"

Jumpa mak ayah ok, ciri2 kita nak tu ada, plan jadi, ok la tu. Mungkin hati kita yg xok sebab kita banyak emosi, banyak prasangka. Check ourself first before others. Hati. Iman. Istiqomah.

#that26dec

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"Desperate?"

"Hg rasa desperate ke kalau mnx dgn cara ikhlas?"

Biggest Mistake!

" Aku tau hang penat dgn convention tu kan, lepas tu dr no 3 jadi no 6 "

" Hg kena kawal emosi hg "

" Aku tau hg tak expect pon soalan macm tu. Ak igt lagi hg kata sr hg kata depa xtanya benda selain pharmaco "

" Mana tahu Allah nak tarbiyah hg dgn cara ni. Allah tahu hg akan tersentuh dgn ni. "

" Xpa, this is your first time Anis. "

" Kau dah memang macam ni (cepat letih) "

At the end, i know its all my mistake. My biggest mistake.
Kena pandai kawal emosi, Anis.
Kena pandai handle things, walau penat macam mana pon, Anis.
Kena bangkit dari kelemahan diri, Anis.

Sampai bila nak terus berulit senang lenang dgn kata
" dah aku mmg macam ni "

Macam tu nak jadi somebody important?
Too far, Anis. Way too far.

The choice is yours. Silalah. Nak berubah ke xnak.

Judge

Xda latar belakang agama
Ilmu xbanyak

Lepas tu ada hati nak pandai2 kata hat ni betul hat ni salah hat ni boleh hat ni xboleh. Simple hadis pun xhafal. Kita nowadays..

Kita hidup akhir zaman.
Tahu.
Dunia dah nak kiamat.
Tahu.
Fitnah berleluasa.
Tahu.
Ramai org memandai2.
Tahu.
Ramai org xikut hukum.
Tahu.

" Jangan memberi hukum / berfatwa / bercakap kalau kamu tiada ilmu " - A syeikh (can't remember his name but his video is available in youtube.

Macam2 benda jadi. Ada yg kata salah ada yg kata betul. At the end of the day entah2 kita p ikut kata org yg salah. Yg xda ilmu pun pasal benda tu. Xpon kita memandai2 p judge sendiri padahal dalam dada kosong! Ilmu xbyk!

The best?
TANYA ALIM ULAMA.